i hope i never ever ever have to go through the feeling of waking up with a hangover ever again for as long as i can. i am so bad at first time experiences. i'm actually pretty proud of myself for not getting gross trashy annoying drunk, if anything, it only made me a bit more social, not that that's anything worth doing again just for that reason alone. AND thank god i never went through that in high school. i just don't know how people can do that every day or every other day for that matter. that sort of lifestyle is just not me at all.
i think it was my last time visiting EIU, at least for a little while. i probably won't be able to anymore since school is getting serious now and i don't want to risk anything. honest to god, i worry so much, sometimes. but then when that happens i just have to remind myself that it's all a matter of taking things day by day, and just, you know, not thinking about things so much. it that can really screw you up inside, thinking about your future and if you will be able to do the things you want to do with your life by the time you're a certain age. maybe that's why some people drink so much. it sort of just slows everything down. it still isn't worth it though, i'd rather go manic depressive than become a full time drunk.
right now, the only thing i'm looking forward to is sleep, valentines day weekend with mike, spring break with mike, and summer.
