I am inclined to believe that my mood is determined by the weather. I don't really mind winter so much, because I've realized that without it, or without any of the four seasons, there wouldn't be as much variety. Variety and change is a constant, and thus very important in the cycle of life. Most of the time, my life is real boring and uneventful, and if there wasn't something that was constantly changing, like the weather, then it would just add more boring-ness to my life. I'm not sure if all of that makes sense, but I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sick of winter and would like some change now. I have come to the conclusion that I am a much happier person in the summer. Some days I wake up and don't want to get out of bed, but I somehow still manage to do it anyways.
I've been thinking about relationships a lot lately, maybe it's due to my Family and Consumer Science class. We just finished a chapter on love, friendship, commitment, intimacy, and how they are all interrelated. I have only really had strong emotions for one person, and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever have those sort of feelings for anyone ever again. The thought of that makes me cry, sometimes I even feel like crying in public places, that's how intense it's gotten. Crying is a good thing sometimes, it's better than being numb and apathetic. I used to think that was what I wanted, but now I see that it is better to feel something than nothing at all. How else would I know that I am alive?
